Wednesday, October 29, 2008
The Shock
So, I wasn't going to write about this but I feel like I should write into words how I have been feeling about Cascade closing. I was very fortunate because my dad called and told me so I wouldn't find out about it on the internet. I am very greatful for that. I'm not going to lie, I was hysterical when I found out. I cried alone in my room for a while and nearly hyperventilated, not wanting anyone to see my tears. Finally I knew I couldn't handle it so I went down to my friends room, where they were having a homework party. I cried in front of them, which i HATE, but they helped comfort me and let me use their computer to make a phone call. After the initial shock and tears and sadness my mind became a little clear. i realized that God has provided me with blessings my entire life. He gave me a wonderful family, friends, boyfriend and school. The school will be gone soon, but He does everything for a reason and I believe that He will continue to provide for me and everyone else affected. This last year I didn't really have a plan for after college so I said that whatever path God chooses for me I will follow. I guess I didn't think it would ever come to this extreme. However I must acccept this as reality, if no miracle occurs. Yesterday I went back to the refugee center to help out with a halloween party for the kids, it helped get my mind off of things for a while. I heard more of the story of a girl named Michelle. Her family life is extremley disturbed. Her mother left her in Austria to take care of her grandfather in Serbia. She is not able to be a good mother because she is always gone, after a few months the grandfather died and the family didnt have enough money for a funeral, so his body stayed in the house for three days before they could move it. Hearing this story puts my life in perspective. I had the priveledge of higher education, and even though this particual college is closing, I still have a bright future, I will never have to suffer the pain and troubles of a family like Michelle's. I still have so much, even though a huge part of my life is being taken away. This is a true test of my faith, never have a been tested to this magnitude. But you know what? God has a plan and will take care of everyone at Cascade. I just know He will, and that fact gives me comfort. I just wish I was home to comfort those at Cascade struggling right now. This is in my prayers everyday, many times a day and all of my friends here are praying as well. I got a few verses from someone very special to me and I thought I would share one of them here: "Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you can be mature and complete, not lacking anything." James 1:2-4. This verse has really helped me, I hope it will help others as well.
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Keep praying for a miracle for our dear school, mom and I are!
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I'm have enjoyed your blog SO much!
Remember... Romans 8:28
And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.
Brooke,
I am feeling the pain along with you. Thank you for sharing it. You had a plan and now it has changed. You intellectually know God is in control, but you are mourning the loss of something you love and of plans you made. It is hard to change direction. Keep writing; it helps you sort through it. If you can't share it, write it down, anyway and share it with the Lord (you can always throw it away). I'm sure your blog is helping others in the same situation.
Grief is a process, though painful, and you'll land on your feet. God has gifted you in so many ways. You're an awesome person, and I can't wait to see where your life path takes you. (Jeremiah 29:11) We're all praying for a miracle for Cascade in the meantime!
Love you! Norma
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